you've left and so i have died
as you phased me out of your life, i phased myself out of mine until there was nothing left of the girl i used to be.
if you were to tell me we could no longer be together i'd spend every day for the rest of my life waiting for you to take it back
like i was a deer in headlights, you ran me over and left my entrails smeared in the aftermath of your touch
at first i couldn't even tell that i'd died, because it didn't hurt
it didn't hurt when you kept me secret,
because it meant i was yours to keep
it didn't even hurt when you pushed me away,
because i thought i knew you wouldn't really let me go
then i watched you hit another deer
you've brought back the parts of me that died when i was 10
and so it rained for 40 days and 40 nights
it rained until the whole world flooded and i had no ground left to stand on
heaven could feel my pain and it showered me in it's understanding
god never told me to build an ark because there was no point
the weight of my solitude would have sunk the ship before it ever set sail